Our friend Ginger has been having some issues recently that have her head spinning. Her Dad has been pretty sick and she's been worried. And, as icing on the cake, her fragile relationship with her Mother has been tested further. Ginger has a history with her Mother - not necessarily a relationship. Her Mother was married to the devil incarnate who abused Ginger for roughly 10 years of her life. Abuse in ways that often Ginger wonders how she survived. And she isn't always thankful she did. Her Mother tolerated this abuse by A) saying she didn't know anything about it, and B) plainly turning the other cheek. As you can imagine, that led Ginger to believe she was completely unworthy of love and led to many other emotional problems later in life. Problems that pop up for no reason on otherwise normal days.
That being said, her Mother is currently under the impression Ginger "hates" her and just can't fathom why. ginger does NOT hate her Mother. Period. Ginger has experienced entirely too much pain to willing cause someone else pain, so she has a difficult time trying to explain her feelings and emotions. At the suggestion of her therapist, she wrote down a list of occurrences she feels her Mother could/should be sorry for, but it was not healing at all. It basically cut open the old would with a dirty plastic spoon and dumped a butt-load of rubbing alcohol inside it.
In a nutshell, our friend Ginger has hit a pretty rough patch. Most of it is just once again coming to grips with her past life and the fact that she actually survived. Totally by the grace of God, mind you. The grace of God and Ginger's sheer stubborn will. But she needs some love to pull herself back out of the muck. There is so much of it that once she steps close to it, she's too weak and gets sucked right back in the pit of despair. She will get there - she is strong. But its often the strong ones who are the weakest when they're just beat down.
Make sure to love your friends today. Tell them often. Everyone needs to hear they are loved. Everyone.